Agents Universe

Before reading this, read:

AN OASIS OF VIOLENCE - SAVING KYLE PART 1
https://mars.chatfighters.com/story/50677

THE NIGHTMARE BEGINS - SAVING KYLE PART 2
https://mars.chatfighters.com/story/50780

THE VALLEY OF DESPAIR - SAVING KYLE PART 3
https://mars.chatfighters.com/story/50781

A BITTER PILL - SAVING KYLE PART 4
https://mars.chatfighters.com/story/50847

TO SAVE A HERO - SAVING KYLE PART 5
https://mars.chatfighters.com/story/50928

UNEXPECTED OUTCOMES - SAVING KYLE PART 6
https://mars.chatfighters.com/story/50929

DAY 5

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I tossed and turned, I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t stop thinking about Kyle. Last night… he … loved Mason that much… so strongly… that he would rather die than feel responsible for his death. I cried a little bit there on my bed, thinking about Dave.. I hadn’t let myself think about Dave since the day I learned that Kyle and Mason had killed him. I didn’t want to think about it. I wanted to forget about it. But I couldn’t. It hurt. This wasn’t an emotion I could simply slide on and off like a sweater. This one stuck. And seeing Kyle… seeing how he reacted to the lie I had told caused me to feel all the pain I had been holding back. I cried. Then, I got up suddenly. I knew what I had to do. I marched down the halls of our base, in nothing but my underwear, and into the medical wing. I dismissed the guards and nurses, and disconnected Kyle from the monitors. I swept him up in my arms, his body felt so good, so good against my hard muscle. I felt so … shaken. So.. uncertain. But I had to try and fix some of the damage I had done. I had to. And besides… it would work in our favor. There was still the plan, after all to make Kyle into a Trojan Horse. I could still do it.. Can you Ivan? Yes. I can. And I can fix his pain. Are you sure, Ivan? I can. I’m ruthless. I do what I have to. People are my tools. Was Dave your tool, Ivan? I growl.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I focus on the moment, the here and now. I enter my bedroom with Kyle in my arms, and I pull back the covers, and gently, gently, tenderly lay him down on the bed, rolling him onto his left side, so as not to aggravate his gunshot wounds. I snuggle up beside him, and pull him against me, wrapping my arms tightly around him. Last night never happened I had decided. The time between when Kyle went to sleep in my arms after I fed him and the time he knocked himself out while trying to kill himself simply had not happened. It had not. Kyle would wake up exactly where he was when he went to sleep, and when he tells me about the horror and the nightmare about James, I will look confused, and tell him it was all some kind of nightmare. Just a nightmare. After 4 days of sleep deprivation, after 4 days of brainwashing and torture, Kyle’s mind will be so confused and weak he won’t be able to tell dreams from reality. And he will want this to be a dream. And Ivan will give him what he wants. But now he is safe with me, in my arms, and he can forget it ever happened. Because his Ivan has him. His Ivan will look after him. Will you Ivan? Or will you use him as a tool? Did you use Dave as a tool? Of course not!! Will you use Kyle as a tool? I didn’t answer my own question. I just held Kyle against me, wrapped his hard, powerful muscle in my arms, and stayed awake, keeping vigil over this handsome young detective until the morning.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: I hear Xavier’s and James’s yellings in my nightmare. They are struggling in pain while I watch them suffer without any reaction. I can’t help them… I can’t stop their suffering. They are asking for help, but I just keep staring at them. They ask me to help them, but I just stand there. Am I that bad? I am that bad. I am that shit, I am that worthless, I am that stupid. I am a traitor. But it will be over soon. I will wake up with a completely new perspective. I will be gone. Ivan will be happy because I don’t need to be a burden for him. The other agents will be happy because I won’t kill another Dave. My other beloved ones, especially my uncle will be happy, because I won’t be the reason they are suffering anymore. Yeah… I will meet with Xavier… I will meet with James. I am going to apologize to them. They would forgive me, right? Ivan did, they can as well…

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: My eyes open slowly. I am in a comfortable place. It’s so soft, like a bed. And some arms are surrounding me. OH YES. It’s James… I am dead, and he forgave me in the afterlife. My mind is feeling so much more rested. I can almost think straight. I feel so much better. Yeah, that was the solution to everything. But as my eyes widened and examined the room, I felt something was wrong. I know this place, this is… Ivan’s room? But I am dead… I am dead… Am I not? I slowly look over my shoulder. That’s… Not James… That’s Ivan… No… NO… I am not dead. I am still in the world. I am still going to hurt everybody. I CAN’T EVEN KILL MYSELF. I CAN’T EVEN COMMIT SUICIDE… I start struggling to free myself from Ivan’s arms. No… I am going to kill myself. I am not going to kill another Dave, another Xavier, another James… I am not going to hurt another uncle Tim, and… I’m not going to hurt another Ivan as well. Yes… I am not going to hurt anyone. I need to grab something. There should be a gun in this room. I will find a weapon and kill myself.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: Suddenly, Kyle wakes up, and begins struggling fiercely. I hold him tighter, and speak softly into his ear, “SHhhhhhhhhhhhh… Careful, careful. You will hurt yourself. You had such terrible nightmares last night. Shhhhh… You were screaming in your dreams about Mason being dead. SHhhhhhh… It was all a dream. Just a dream. I’ve got you. Your Ivan has you. I’ll keep you safe. I’ll keep you from hurting any of your loved ones. It’s all going to be fine. Just trust me Kyle, trust me. You don’t have to make any more decisions. I will make them for you. “ I hold Kyle firmly, gently in my arms, and kiss his neck, my voice so full of love and tenderness. Yes Ivan. You love him don’t you? Just like you loved Dave. No, no… I only love him because I love how I have corrupted my enemy. Really? Ivan? Are you sure? No no… I … no… “I have you Kyle. Everything will be fine as long as you do what I say and trust me.”

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: I can’t free myself. Ivan holds me firmly, and whispers into my ear. Terrible nightmares? Is Mason dead? But, I know. I saw his photos. I felt the pain. That was so painful. Then electric shocks, over and over again. Was it all a dream? No… It wasn't… Was it? I was so tired yesterday. Is Ivan telling the truth? He protects my beloved ones. He protects them from me, why should he lie about this situation? He decides for me, just like he told me, just like he promised. I stop struggling and let go. I’m breathing a bit hard, as I mumble “James? Is James dead? Did I kill him?” tears start to fill my eyes. Was it a bad dream? Please let it be a dream. I don’t want to hurt anymore. I don’t want to be responsible. But Ivan is here. If he is here, nothing can be wrong. He will take care of my beloved ones. I am being good, I am, right?

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I hold him to me tightly, letting my love and affection wash over him. Kyle. My property. My tool. My… beloved. He calms down as I hold him gently. Then, he asks me about Mason. “James? No, of course not Kyle. James isn’t dead. You’ll get to see him in a few days. Daniel told me how much James means to you, and he was kind enough to find James for you. Daniel will bring him here in a few days. And then, you’ll have all your beloved ones here, with Ivan to look after. I’ll keep you from hurting them, I promise.” The conditioning and the brainwashing seemed to have taken a deep hold on Kyle, and that was very good. Because his Ivan meant to keep his word. When Daniel was done with James, I would bring him here, and drug him, and keep him as my pet, and keep my word to Kyle. Kyle is my beloved. Kyle is just your tool, Ivan. No. Kyle is my beloved. Was Dave my tool? No. Dave was not my tool. Neither is Kyle. But Kyle will do what I ask. I know he will. He will still help me assassinate the leaders. Because he loves me. He will love me. As I love him.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: I take a deep sigh. Oh… Thank god. He is not dead, thank you… Thank you… I relax. Ivan is taking care of everything. Ivan is caring for my loved ones. He didn’t let Daniel kill James. Ivan is so good. He looks after me. Then it hit me, I thought about the other ones. Tim, Xavier, Dave… I killed Xavier, I am not to be trusted. I killed him so brutally. Then Tim… If it weren’t for Ivan, he would also be dead. I screwed up with him too. Then Dave… Dave… Dave… Did Ivan hurt when I killed Dave? Did I hurt him so much? I am hurting Ivan too. I was losing my mind whenever I thought I had lost James. What about Ivan? I mumble quietly “Did it hurt that much when I killed Dave?”

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: No… Kyle… WHY ARE YOU ASKING HIM THIS… You are going to hurt Ivan. He is trying his best to forgive you, and you are pushing him. I just… I just wanted to learn if he suffered as much as I did, maybe more than me? Ivan… I start crying gently again, and turn around to face him. I… Love him? But I love James? But I love Ivan too? How? I don’t feel I need to force myself anymore? James loved Nick as well, so I guess that is possible? I move my hands to Ivan’s cheek, and rub it gently, still crying, but looking directly into his eyes as well. I am hurting… I am even hurting the person who protects everyone from me… I need to die… I need to kill myself. Ivan? Ivan can help me. I put a kiss on his lips, a short one, but that was the sincerest thing I have ever done to Ivan so far, then I whispered into his mouth “Ivan… Kill me… I deserve to die… Please… I don’t need to hurt anyone… Help me to kill myself…”

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I held Kyle as he calmed down, my words were soothing him, I had told him what he wanted to hear. Then, he asks me about Dave. The question was like a dagger suddenly plunged into my heart… Big bluff Dave. From London. Tough, hard as nails, and yet in bed, as gentle and tender as Kyle. He could drink too, he could match me shot for shot of my favorite vodka. He was so good at football… He loved football.. Oh Dave… I miss you. I start to cry softly, but there is no rage, no anger right now. I’m so confused. It isn’t supposed to work like this. I’m not supposed to.. I can’t… then Kyle turns into me, and kisses me as tears are gently rolling down my cheeks. It feels so soft. So very very soft. So tender. Brutal Ivan. Ruthless Ivan. You must be ruthless, Hard. Your emotions are a tool. Just a tool. Then Kyle begins begging me to kill him. What have I done?

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I’m crying gently now, the hardness I use to hide my emotions cracking, and crumbling. I hold Kyle tightly, he is so broken. And I broke him. He killed Dave. I know. I know he did. But I can’t hate him for it. He ruined your schemes, cost you Mason. I know. But I can’t hate him for it. He is so broken. How can I hate such a broken man? I love him. Through my tears I cradle Kyle tighter against my chest, my hard, powerful muscles enfolding him with exquisite tenderness. “Shhh.. Kyle… shhhe… you don’t want to die. That would hurt me. You don’t want to hurt me, do you? Shhhh It’s okay. You are fine now. Mason doesn’t want you to die, does he? You would hurt him if you die. You see Kyle, even this decision you want to make, to die, will hurt people. You must stop making all decisions and let me make them for you. I ..” I swallow, and my eyes are shining, and there is no deceit in my words this time, “.. love you Kyle. I love you. I will keep you safe. I will protect you. Trust me Kyle. I will keep you safe. I will keep your Tim safe. I will keep your Mason safe. Because I love you.” Fire Ivan. You thought you could play with fire and not get burned. You fool. You fool. You fool. You have burned yourself, and now what will you do? I held Kyle tightly against me, and let him know how much I loved him.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: Ivan is crying as well. Yes, I hurt him too. But he still hugs me back, I can feel his tight grip as well. He is so merciful. He really cares. And he says he doesn’t want me to die. I don’t want to listen at first, I want to protest. But then, he says this would hurt him, this would hurt James. He… He is right. If I die, James would feel bad. And if I die, Ivan would feel bad? Because he cares about me… Yes… He cares. I move my hands around his back as well, and pull him closer to me too. And I hug him with all my strength as well. Then he says he loves me. He… Loves me? Ivan loves me? But I killed Dave? But he forgave you Kyle. I… I don’t want to hurt him. I… If he doesn’t want me to die, then I will make it up to him as well. I will help him to ease the pain that I caused when I killed Dave. I will help him. He helps me. He protects my beloved ones. I will help him too. I mumble into his chest “I will keep you safe too Ivan… I will protect you…” then I take a deep breath, then move on “I am sorry…”

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: Suddenly, Kyle speaks up as he hugs me so gently. Kyle.. his gestures, his motions, his movements they ring with a sincerity and genuineness that moves me. I … How… and yet… Oh Kyle. He is so broken… And I am rebuilding him into exactly what I wanted. I am getting everything I want. So.. Why. Was Dave your tool, Ivan? Did you love Dave, Ivan? Is Kyle your tool, Ivan? Do you love Kyle, Ivan? NO no no no.. Then, Kyle murmurs into my hard, steel chest, this beautiful, handsome broken detective, my sworn enemy, murmurs into my chest how he will keep me safe… How he will protect me… And he apologizes to me. To me. Oh Kyle… Kyle. I am so moved. Where is your ruthlessness, now Ivan? Where is your brutality? Where are your tools? Are your emotions your tools now, Ivan? You fool. You stupid fool. You played with fire. And now you are getting burned. I wish, I wish Derek were here. He could help me understand. Derek could help. I breathe deeply, then draw Kyle even closer to me. Suddenly, on an impulse, acting instead of thinking, I kissed Kyle. A deep, passionate, sincere kiss, my tongue exploring his mouth, my hands gently stroking his body, exploring his lean muscle, tenderly avoiding his gunshot wound. Feeling his torso, his back, exploring every muscle as though I had never touched him before.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: All of a sudden, I feel Ivan’s kiss. His deep, passionate, emotional kiss. He forgave me yes… If he wouldn’t, he wouldn’t kiss me. I was feeling happy. Thanks to Ivan. I kiss him back, gently, letting his tongue explore my mouth. One of my hands goes to the small of Ivan’s back. The other one goes to his jaw, and I caress his cheek with my thumb. How did I not see his powerful muscled body, and his handsomeness before? Maybe I wasn’t looking the right way. But I am now, I can see clearly. Ivan showed me the ropes. He is taking care of me. He is going to protect my beloved ones. How can I express my gratitude to him? Oh… I know…

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: I move my left hand from the small on his back to his dick slowly, and grab it very gently. Then I poke it a little bit, and start jerking him off slowly. He will love that, right? He gave me pleasure, so it would only be fair if I gave him pleasure. I am going to please him. He will be happy. And if Ivan is happy, he is going to love me and my beloved ones. He is going to protect them. I push my body a little forward to get on top of Ivan, still stroking his cock, and still kissing him. But I’m on top of him now… I am going to take care of him, like he does for me…

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: Suddenly, Kyle starts kissing me back, he starts caressing my back. Oh Kyle.. My Dave… Oh Kyle. He begins to gently caress my cheek, brushing it lightly with his thumb. Then, I gasp, his hand it moves… moves… down to my cock, he holds it so tenderly, with such a loving touch. Oh… I moan softly. It feels so good. He pushes forward, and a flash of concern crosses my face, his wounds… but, no, they are healing well, he can manage this. I turn onto my back, and gently guide him as he pushes on top of my hard, thickly muscled chest. The entire time, he keeps kissing me, I keep kissing him, and he keeps stroking my dick. It feels… heavenly. OH Dave.. I miss you. I love you. Why did I never tell you? I can’t tell Dave… Dave is dead. But Kyle… Kyle lives. I gently break off our kiss, and nestle Kyle’s head against my shoulder, turning my mouth to his ear. “I love you Kyle…” I whisper into his ear.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I gently put my left hand on top of Kyle’s back as he nuzzles deeper into my powerful, hard muscles chest. I stroke his back so tenderly. My right hand travels down, and finds Kyle’s manhood. I gently encircle it with my hand, and begin to stroke it softly. It sounded so nice to tell Kyle how I felt. I never told Dave… I never told Dave.. I will not make that mistake with Kyle. “I love you Kyle…” I nibble his ear gently, and stroke his back. I stroke his hard, beautiful cock. Look at yourself now Ivan. You fool. Is Kyle just your tool. Yes. No. Yes. No. Of course not. He is my lover. I love him. How can you love your tools, Ivan? Was Dave just your tool? Why did you never tell Dave how much you loved him? SHUT UP. I shout at the voices in my head. I love Kyle. Love Kyle. I’m sorry Dave. I miss you so much.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: I feel Ivan’s left hand wandering around my back while the right one goes to my cock, and starts jerking me off slowly. Ah… That feels good. Yeah, I give him pleasure, he gives me pleasure. It’s simple. I make Ivan happy, Ivan makes me happy. I protect Ivan, and Ivan protects me. And he also protects my beloved ones, he is so generous. Then he whispers into my ear that he loves me, and starts nibbling my ear gently. Oh… Ohh… That feels… Good… I start leaking precum. I continue to jerk him off in the meantime. He seems happy. Yeah, he looks happy. He is enjoying this. He loves me. What if… Oh… I know… I slowly free myself from Ivan’s grip and start kissing his neck. Then I move my mouth to his nipples, his chest, his abs, and finally his cock. Yeah, he is going to enjoy that. I will be willing now. I open my mouth, and take Ivan’s huge dick in my mouth. Then I start sucking him off. Yes… He is going to love it… I know he will… I don’t look at him, I just close my eyes to focus on my work: pleasuring him. But I am pretty sure he likes it. If he likes it, he is going to love me more…

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: Kyle starts to spurt little bursts of precum as I stroke his cock. Oh man… that excites me. Dave… Dave.. used to do that too. Then, Kyle starts to move slowly down my body, forcing me to lose my grip on his beautiful cock, as his amazing mouth kisses my neck, then my nipples, which causes every fibre of my hard battle-forged muscle to tremble violently. OH GOD… I gasp out loud. Then, he licks down my chest, down my abs, and finally ends up at my manhood. And he… he … willingly… swallows the cock, the manhood, the dick of his enemy… of the man who shot him brutally only five days ago … in a manner so tender and loving that it causes every muscle in my body, every nerve ending to sing with pleasure. I can’t… don’t…. Won’t … hold back. I shudder, tense suddenly, and scream out, “I LOVE YOU KYLE!” as I erupt in your mouth. OH Dave.. why… why didn’t I tell you. I won’t make that mistake with Kyle. So Ivan.. What will you do now? You fool. You played with fire. And you are burned. You idiot. Where is your hard edge now? Where is your ruthlessness? Where are all your brutal and sadistic plans to use your enemy to kill the leaders of CSIS, CCS, and MI6? Will you throw Kyle away like some worthless tool? I love Kyle…. Kyle will.. Do as I ask out of love. Is Kyle a tool, Ivan? SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!!

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: I can feel Ivan shivering as I play with his body. His strong, beautiful, powerful body. But it’s going to get better and better. He loves it, I can feel it. This is just perfect. I love him… I love James too. But James loves Nick as well. This is the same. I love both. I both love James and Ivan. They both are taking care of me. Then I hear Ivan’s shout that he loves me. Then he releases his huge load as I drink all his seed up, I don’t let anything escape, just like he requested of me in the van after the interrogation. Interrogation… I feel… Bad… I killed Xavier… I killed Dave… I hurt so many people… After I complete sucking Ivan off, I move my body up, and put my head on his shoulder, then I rub his abs while closing my eyes and mumbling “I’m sorry.. I’m sorry…” How am I going to forget all of these? I don’t care if he does not give me pleasure now. I don’t deserve it… I hurt everyone… Ivan, James, Tim… TIM… My uncle? Where is he? He was here, Ivan was taking care of him. I mumble again “Can I see my uncle again Ivan? I am being good, right? I am obeying you…” I want to see him. If I can see him, and if I make sure he is fine, I will feel better, so I can make Ivan feel better. And in the end, Ivan will love me more, and protect my beloved ones more…

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: It’s amazing… Kyle swallows all of my seed as I tell the voices in my head to be quiet, to shut up. Dave… Dave.. I’m sorry. I shudder in the aftermath, as Kyle slowly crawls up my body to rest his head on my shoulder as his hand gently strokes my abs. He apologizes again. My god… I have broken him. Deeply broken him. But.. I had to break him. If I hadn’t, how could I have loved him? How could he have loved me? This was right. Did you have to break Dave, Ivan? Did you break Dave before he could love you? SHUT UP. Then, Kyle asks me if he can see his Uncle. Oh yes… his uncle, Tim, deeply addicted to B now. And Kyle wanted to see him. Yes, of course… of course. I whisper, “Yes of course Kyle, but first we need to have lunch. You have slept in a long time, and it is lunch now. Will you have lunch with me, Kyle? After lunch, we can go see your Uncle together and see how he is recovering from his injuries. And… Kyle…” I smile so gently at him, so lovingly, “You should know now, that you will be moving in here , with me. This is your room, your home now. I will care for you, and you will live and sleep with me now. Does that make you happy?”

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: Yes, Ivan will let me see my Uncle. I am being good, so he listens to my requests. Thank you Ivan… But he mentions lunch first. I am hungry, yeah. I haven't eaten much in the past few days. I want to enjoy eating again. But… He also wants me to move in here? He really cares, he really loves me. Otherwise, he wouldn’t ask me to move here, right? I hug him tightly to show my gratitude and love, then let him go, and kiss his cheek “That makes me happy… Let’s have lunch first… Then we can see my uncle. He will love you as well, I am sure… Then I will move here...” Then I slowly raise to my knees, and rub my face. I am happy. After all the suffering of the past few days, I finally feel refreshed and happy. Then I hold Ivan’s hand firmly with my hand, my other one goes to his chin, and I force him to look at me. I am smiling at him, wow… I really never looked at Ivan. He is actually handsome. Then I speak in a soft tone “Thank you Ivan… Thank you…” then I finally get up, and try to help him to get up as well “By the way… I make the perfect breakfast… I can show you sometime. I showed James and he liked it… You probably will as well…”

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: It is like a light switch has been flipped inside of Kyle, he begins to glow with happiness. I am stunned by the difference in him. And, again, the objective part of my mind analyses his reactions with approval, the brainwashing has taken a deep hold on Kyle. It won’t be long, just a few days, to establish these new patterns as the norm for Kyle, then I can begin instructing him in his new duty as my assassin… Would have treated Dave that way, Ivan? Would you have brainwashed him and molded him into your tool? What is Kyle to you, Ivan? He’s not the same man to you he was a few days ago is he? I shake my head out, trying to shut down the thoughts. But the truth was… I was not certain anymore. Not so certain at all. I get up off the bed, gently push Kyle down, “Not yet Kyle, lay down for just a bit longer.” Then, I get dressed in my combat boots, a pair of jeans, and a tight fitting red shirt, showing off my muscle. I turn to Kyle, who is still naked, and hold out my arm. “The Doctor said you can try walking today. Here, take it gentle and slow, and use my arm to help you sit up. Then, we’ll get you some clothes, and have a nice lunch, before we visit your Uncle. And tomorrow, you can make me breakfast. I’m sure I’ll enjoy it.” I smile at him with warmth, encouragement and love. My mind was spinning. So certain. So sure. So ruthless. I was a fool. A fool. And now… I had no idea what I was going to do next. Except help Kyle get back on his feet, have a nice lunch… and take him to visit his Uncle.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: As soon as I tried to stand up, my legs were shaking a little bit. Ahh… I forget… I forget from all the emotions I experienced that I was injured. But I was feeling fine. It won’t take too long until my body is completely healed. As Ivan requested, I sit down again. Then Ivan dresses up in front of me. He looks so cool, so strong. Then he offers his arm to help me get up. I hold onto his arm, and start raising up to my feet again. More slowly and carefully this time, but I hold onto Ivan’s arm firmly. He won’t let me fall, I know he won’t. And I did it, I stood on my feet. With Ivan’s support, I don’t feel like I am shaking anymore, I can walk. I know I can. I take my first step slowly. It aches a little bit, but nothing too serious. I will do it. I can walk again, thanks to Ivan. Because he took care of me, he healed me. He is the one who shot me as well, but that was only because I didn’t listen to him. Now… Some clothes, then a meal, then my uncle. It’s a perfect schedule. And he also wants me to prepare breakfast for him. Yes, I know I can make him happy. After taking a couple of steps, I turn to face Ivan, and wrap one of my arms around his neck to get more support, then reply in a playful tone “Alright… Deal… That sounds like a perfect plan… Afterwards, once I am healed completely, we can do a training session as well, right? I missed fighting…” I look at Ivan’s face with sparkling eyes, he is so hot, so cool. I am being good, so he will listen to me. And fighting would probably turn him on, that would be a good opportunity to please him. James and I also wanted to train. Maybe he can join us?

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: Then my mind starts to clear a little more. I very slowly start to remember my past and present, and compare them. I can detect the conflicts in my brain, there are some little things which don't fit together? My face hardens. Ivan and James hated each other? Then, how are they going to get along? But Ivan hated me at first. I hated him as well. But now I love him, and he loves me too. Maybe he loves James now as well? Yeah, probably they are not enemies now. If they were, Ivan wouldn’t promise me to take care of James, right? He would have let James die… But he didn’t. Not just because of me. Ivan loves James as well. Just like he promised, just like he said...

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I support Kyle as he takes his first steps since I shot him back in Minneapolis. He is young, fit, and a strong man. Despite the torture he’s endure, he has healed fast. I encourage him until he becomes steadier. I give him a warm smile. This .. this is incredible. The brainwashing has deeply, deeply taken hold. Now, if we can just navigate the conflicts that arise as he begins to remember his former life, then the new mindset will be firmly entrenched. Did you need to brainwash Dave, Ivan? Before he loved you? That thought twists in my heart like a knife. Dave… But then Kyle puts his arm around me, and turns his smile to me, asking if we could train together once he is healed. Again, the pain knifes through my heart. Dave and I sparred together all the time, it was one of our favorite activities. You fool. Ivan, you are a fool. You played with fire, and now it has burned you. I smile gently at Kyle, “Of course we can! I am one of the best hand to hand fighters in the Brotherhood of Steel. Even Derek can’t match my skills. I could teach you so much Kyle. And it would be such a pleasure to spar with you.” My eyes light up, and my cock stiffens in my trousers. And then, another knife twists in my heart. Dave and I… we always made love together after we trained… Oh Dave, I miss you so much.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I call for one of my servants, and within a minute, they bring in some clothes that fit Kyle. A simple pair of blue jeans and a white t-shirt, along with some underwear, socks and trainers. I know that moving his arms and legs, and bending over is still difficult for Kyle, so I dress him myself. Carefully and lovingly slipping the t-shirt over his athletically muscled body. He is so handsome… So hot, so beautiful. My hands linger as I pull the shirt in place, touching his muscles through the fabric. I kiss him gently on the forehead, then sit him down on the bed, and very carefully pull the underwear and the jeans on him, up his legs, lovingly handling the gunshot wound on his thigh as I pull the underwear and trousers up. I put his socks and his trainers on as well, since it would be very painful to bend over with his gunshot wound in his abs.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: Then, lunch arrives. It’s a simple meal, some fresh roast beef sandwiches with two glasses of orange juice, but it is the first solid food that Kyle has had since I captured him, so I don’t want it to be too large a portion. The entire time we eat, I can’t keep my eyes off him. The way his eyes sparkle, the way he smiles, the way he turns his head, it all captivates me. In the middle of lunch I suddenly lean forward, and with a tender expression, I brush his cheek with my hand, and tell him again, “I love you Kyle.” It feels so good to say that. You loved Dave, didn’t you Ivan? Loved him very much. This man killed Dave. And to punish him, you were going to brainwash him and turn him into a weapon, a tool. How is that working for you Ivan? My heart is twisting with anguish. What is happening to me? I love him… the man who killed Dave… I am in love with him. How? You played with fire Ivan. You fool. What will you do now with your “tool”? I choke suddenly, some of the roast beef sandwich going down the wrong way. I turn aside, and wipe away a tear of anguish, I don’t want Kyle to see my turmoil. Then, when I turn back, my face is once more filled with warmth and love for this amazing man. We finish our meal, and I softly reach out to take Kyle’s hand. It feels so good, his hand in mine. I ask him, “Are you ready to see your Uncle now, Kyle?”

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: Yes. he wants to train with me as well. Why do you push your limits so hard Kyle, in the first place? It was that simple. God, Ivan’s smile is so beautiful. Then another servant brings some clothes, and Ivan starts to dress me up. He is so tender, so nice, so gentle. I misjudged him so much. Underwear and blue jeans, a white t-shirt, some socks and trainers. Yeah, I think I look good. Wearing clothes again feels so nice. It’s just so amazing. He kisses my forehead at the same time. He loves me. I love him. I love Ivan. He is one incredible man.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: Then our food arrived. WOW! What is that? Roast beef sandwiches? God, I missed eating so much. And there is also orange juice. This is just so fucking amazing. I suddenly forget everything and dig into the meal hungrily. It feels like I am even eating faster than James. The taste… The pleasure… He gives me pleasure in another way. He is so generous, so perfect. While eating my sandwiches, I feel the back of his hand caressing my cheek, and he says he loves me again. I can’t answer him right away since my mouth is full, but I don’t forget to look at him gratefully. But afterwards, he chokes all of a sudden. I look at him in panic. Ivan? But he quickly looks at me once again with a full, warm smile. He is such an incredible man. I feel so guilty for treating him badly. As we finish our meal, I hear Ivan’s question. Yes… My uncle… I get to see him again. He should be fine, Ivan is taking care of him. Maybe… Maybe if I obey a little bit longer, I can ask Ivan to send him to London. He wanted to go to London. But he couldn’t because of me. But Ivan can change that, right?

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: I look at Ivan with thankful eyes, and rub his head with my other hand, The other one is squeezing his hand firmly as he holds me. I put a kiss on his lips once more with a smile on my face. Then I get up slowly, but still before Ivan, not letting go of his hand. As soon as I get up, I try to pull him up as well, speaking in a cheerful tone “Yes… I am ready… Come on, let’s go see my uncle, you big, hand-to-hand combat warrior.” Then I remember his fighting skills, back in the warehouse. He was a good fighter but… He had been choking me out. It was so painful. But you choked him as well Kyle… That was your fault. You were hurting him, and he was trying to protect himself? Yes… That sounds right. If I don’t obey, Ivan will hurt me and my beloved ones. If I obey, he will protect them. Moreover, you stabbed him as well. You hurt his arm so much. My face hardens again as I think of that, and quickly look at Ivan’s left arm, right where I stabbed my knife into his arm… Oh my god… I hurt him so bad. I am so sorry. My eyes become more sorrowful, and my smile fades away. I lean forward a little bit, and kiss the place where I stabbed. There doesn’t seem to be any sign of the wound. But I need to apologize to him for hurting him. I don’t want to hurt Ivan anymore. I don’t want to hurt anyone… I just want to be happy.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: Kyle was glowing with happiness, and it was infecting me. I felt… I felt like… what I wanted most was to make him happy. He stood up after our meal, and gripped my hand, trying to pull me up. Feeling almost like a lovesick teenager, I stood up as he rose, with an almost goofy smile on my face. Remember Dave, Ivan? Remember the first time you and he met in that bar. Remember how you smiled when he downed his shot of vodka and gave you that friendly punch on the arm? Was that so different than how you feel now? What is Kyle to you, Ivan? Is he just a tool? Was Dave just a tool? I … I … no… Kyle. Then, suddenly, Kyle leaned forward and kissed my left arm. The very spot where he had stabbed me. It still ached, and even now I didn’t have full use of my left arm back. But clearly, Kyle was trying to apologize to me for stabbing there. The implications were stunning. It meant that he was now remembering events that had occurred before his brainwashing with clarity and precision, and it meant that he was viewing those events through the lense of his conditioning. He was rewriting his past to fit the conditioning I had imprinted on his mind. Did you have to brainwash Dave, Ivan? To make him love you? I can even see the sorrow in his eyes. He is truly sorry for stabbing me.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: Shaken by this, I lead Kyle slowly towards his Uncle’s chambers. I enter, and Tim is laying down on a bed, deeply asleep. Of course he was. I had the doctor drug him beforehand. The doctor was there now in fact, and greeted us. He sat down next to Tim’s bed, and bustled about him checking his bandages and spreading cream on his still savagely bruised body, and checking the casts on his various broken bones. I asked the doctor, “How is Tim today Doctor?” The Doctor looked up, speaking, as he had been coached to say, “Very good sir. In fact, he was awake just a while ago. He had been telling us all about his nephew, Kyle, and how much he loved him. He told us how glad he was to be here with Kyle. Then, he grew tired, and we helped him to nap. He’ll need lots of sleep and rest to recover from his beating. Tony and his men were brutal, and he’s in constant pain except when he is asleep, so we give him something to help him sleep as much as possible. But he is healing very well.” I look over at Kyle. “Are you glad to see your Uncle, Kyle? I’m trying my best to heal him for you, and to make sure he is not in pain.”

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: Ivan leads me to my uncle’s chamber. He was sleeping, peacefully. He was so calm, but his body was covered in bruises. Then the doctor explains how good he was, even mentions how happy he is and how much he loves me. But he also emphasizes that he is in constant pain if he does not sleep. Then Ivan turns to me, and tells me that he has been trying his best to help him recover. He is trying to ease his suffering. I look at him with a sorrowful smile, and nod. Then I slowly let his hand go, and stagger towards my uncle. Tim… The only family I had… The first person I knew in my life. My mother and my father Tim… That grumpy old man who raised me, who devoted his life to me. And now he was suffering because of me, because of my failures. I grab his hand, and kiss it, then start talking in a depressed tone.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: “Do you remember the time when I fell in the playground… I was around 7 years old, and I almost broke my knee, and it was hurting so much… I couldn’t walk… Hehe, I couldn’t even stand up… But as soon as you saw that I had fallen, you rushed to me… And you wrapped your arms around me, and told me that you would never let me go, and you would always be there for me…” FUCK… You are hurting him Kyle, why are you hurting him? Why does he love you? He shouldn’t love you… You are the worst thing that ever happened in his life… I can’t stop my tears as I move on “But you should have let me go uncle… Because I was not there when you needed me… I couldn’t protect you when you were in trouble … trouble that I caused… I… I am… I am a disgrace to you, I know… But… I love you too. I love you so much… But I won’t feel bad if you hate me…” Why are you lying to him Kyle? You are going to feel bad if he hates you… But you don’t deserve his love Kyle… You are just hurting him… He would have been so happy if it weren’t for you… I continue to cry as I move on “I came here to say I am sorry… I… I should have let you go to London before… I just… I thought I could make you happy. But I couldn't…”

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: But suddenly, my crying slows down as I look at Ivan, and give him a weak smile, then I continue speaking as I watch Ivan “But Ivan was there for you… He rescued you when I couldn’t… He… He also cares about you…” then I turn my gaze to Tim, and finish speaking. Just looking at Ivan helped me to pull myself together a little bit “You can trust him. I can’t be trusted, but… I am offering someone much more powerful than me… A person that can reach you in time, a person that can help you to be happy… He can be the person that you are proud of… And… He can be the person you love...” I give his hand a final squeeze and then let his hand go. I don’t think I can look at his face anymore… I don’t have the courage… But I have consigned him to Ivan now. He didn’t lose anything. But… Why do I feel bad? Why do I feel not right? I should have felt better after that conversation. He is safe now, he is protected. I feel… Terrible… I came here to feel better. But I just feel worse now...

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I sat and listened as Kyle held his unconscious Uncle’s hand. His voice grew sadder and sadder as he began to talk to his unhearing Uncle about his early childhood, about how close the bond was between the two of them. You were close with Dave, weren’t you Ivan? Very close, weren’t you? What would you say to Dave if that were him. I started to feel my own sorrow, echoing Kyle’s build inside my chest. Where is your ruthlessness now, Ivan? Your brutality? I listen as Kyle tears himself down in front of his uncle, his words were a product of his broken confidence and self-image, thanks to my brainwashing. Dave was always confident, strong and sure. I would have rather shot myself than take away his confidence. I loved Dave so much. And what about Kyle? You took away his confidence. You broke it. With pleasure. And now you love him. Would you have done this to Dave, Ivan? I felt that something in me was tearing apart. I breathed deeply, and focused on the moment, the here and now.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: Kyle turned to me then, and smiled weakly, and I gave him a warm encouraging smile. That seemed to help him, to bolster him. He turned back to his Uncle, then again, his brainwashing directed his next words, telling his unconscious Uncle that I would look after him and care for him, that he should love me, not Kyle. I had broken Kyle. Deeply. Completely. Kyle dropped his hand, and turned to me. He looked terrible. You fool. Ivan, you fool. You are a total fool. But there was no going back now. The only way was forward. I opened my arms, and enfolded Kyle in a huge hug, my arms wrapping around his torso as I held him tenderly against my hard, powerful muscle. I stroked his hair, and whispered in his ear, “It’s okay Kyle, I know how much it hurts. I know. Just let it out, you can cry if you need to, and I will hold you, and love you, and cherish you. I will look after you and Tim and James and keep them all safe for you. Just let go, I’ve got you, I’m holding you. Let me take care of everything.” There was no way but forward now. And if this were Dave, Ivan? Would you do this Dave? Would tell him what he wanted to hear just to make him feel better? Did you love Dave, Ivan? Do you love Kyle, Ivan? The confusion in my mind was growing… churning like a brewing storm. I … didn’t know… anymore. But I had already started down this path with Kyle, hadn’t I? How could I turn back now? How? There was no going back. Only forward. I held Kyle tightly, and dismissed the Doctor. The doctor gave me a very penetrating look, before leaving.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I stood, and held Kyle, his face buried in the hard powerful steel plates of my chest, so he could not see the tears gently rolling down my face.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: Ivan slowly approaches me, and hugs me tightly, burying my face into his chest. And he says it's alright to let go. I… Can… Trust him… I want to let go. As he says that, I start crying again, harder and harsher. Because after that, this should be a goodbye to your uncle, Kyle. You shouldn't intervene in his life, you should protect him from yourself. You… Only… Hurt… Him… You traitor…

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: That is the word. I… I'm a traitor. I betray everyone. Then my mind clears just a little bit more. My past… I remember, why did so many people love you in the past Kyle? Why did they care for you? You are a murderer, you are a traitor, you are a mess. There are so many people you need to protect from yourself. How are you going to do it, Kyle? How are you going to protect all of them from yourself? How are you going to keep them safe… Suddenly, I started to think about my memories with them. Their voices, their happy voices, showing their gratitude to me… NO… NO… Don't show me gratitude, I don't deserve it. I can hurt you. I can HARM you. But the voices do not stop… No stop… Please… I don't want to hurt you. I started to shake violently. Ivan… Can't… Protect these voices… He can't… I can't pressure him… All of a sudden, I stop hugging Ivan, and try to push him away. I grunt "You can't protect everyone Ivan… There is too much… Too much…" My mind is about to explode… I shut my eyes close. Please shut up… SHUT UP…

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: I can feel I am shaking so hard. Then my mind gives me another undeniable reality… Ivan… Who is going to protect Ivan? If he gives all his energy to protect your beloved ones, who is going to protect him… No… Please… I don't want to think. I don't want to remember my past. They don't stop echoing. PLEASE. PLEASE… Ivan… You would hurt him as well if he is around you Kyle. You can't risk him. He is your guardian, your lover, your everything. Why why why… I take a couple of steps back by forcing myself to be free from Ivan's hug completely. I asked him a question this time. "Who is going to protect you Ivan… Who is going to protect you…" This is hell. The more my mind clears, the more conflicts arise, the more everything becomes complicated. I don't want to think straight. It hurts… I can't stop the voices in my head. They DON'T stop. I can't hold myself while tears are flowing down my cheeks.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: "STOOOOPPP…"

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I held Kyle tightly, comforting him, as the tears rolled down my own cheeks. So torn, so confused, but I must… must go forward… there is no going back. Then Kyle starts to cry even harder, shaking violently. His anguish is tearing at my soul. Would you ever want to see Dave like this, Ivan? Would you do this to Dave? Dave… wasn’t … he … I… Oh fuck.. Kyle pushes me away, breaking free of my embrace, crying that I can’t protect everyone. He starts to shake violently. I can tell what is happening. His past memories are beginning to clash with his conditioning, and it is tearing him apart emotionally. I’ve seen it happen before in other brainwashing victims, but I’ve never been in love with them before. Suddenly, my combat training kicks into gear. This is a combat situation. This calls for ice cold calm, and razor sharp reactions. My emotions are temporarily put aside.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: Kyle pushes himself back from me even further, he asks me who is going to protect me. I can tell he is so worried, in so much pain. Slower… we must go slower. We must reinforce the conditioning and fog his mind again to make his brainwashing even stronger. That will ease his suffering. Will it ease yours, Ivan? Would you feel this way about Dave? SHUT UP. THIS IS NOT THE TIME. I snap at my inner voices that attempt to torment me. The Doctor enters again, attracted by the noise of Kyle’s distress. I whisper quickly in his ear. He nods, and steps behind Kyle, into another room attached to this one. I let Kyle cry for a while, not trying to approach him. Then, the Dr reappears, and professionally, quietly, comes up behind Kyle and injects him with a drug. This drug will fog his mind, and put him into a drugged state, making his mind susceptible to further brainwashing, much as the sleep deprivation does. But sleep deprivation is more effective in the beginning, but now this drug will be equally effective. It will ease his suffering, and put him into a half-dozed state. As the doctor steps back, I step forward, allowing the drug a few moments to begin taking effect.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: As I see Kyle start to calm, I step forward and gently pick him up in my arms. I cradle him against me, soothing him. “Shhh… rest now Kyle, rest. You can rest now. Let’s go back and take a nap, let’s have a rest now. Everything will be better after a rest. I love you Kyle… I love you.” You loved Dave too, Ivan. Would you do this to Dave? I … didn’t answer the voice. There was only one way now, that was forward.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I laid Kyle out on my bed, and gently took out my headphones from a drawer beside my bed. I placed them on Kyle’s ears, and hit play. My voice began gently whispering. I’d prepared this the other day, for the next stage of his brainwashing. And now it was time to use it. I had to go forward. There was no going back. Not now. “Let go Kyle. Let go of your past. Listen to Ivan. Trust Ivan. Ivan loves you. Ivan will care for you. You want to serve Ivan. You want to listen and trust and love Ivan. Let go of your past. Let it go. Let it go. All that matters is the present and the future. Ivan will make all your decisions for you. Ivan will care for you. Trust Ivan. Love Ivan. Believe Ivan. Serve Ivan.” In his drugged state, these subliminal messages would reinforce the conditioning, strengthen the brainwashing. Would you do this to Dave, Ivan? SHUT UP. I have no choice… no choice….must go forward… must… for Kyle… he can’t go back… not now. I lay beside Kyle on the bed as my voice droned on into his drugged mind, and I held him closely. My physical presence deeply reinforces the subliminal messages going deep into his mind. For hours… and hours.. We lay there. The drug would not wear off and Kyle would not fully awake until this evening. And when he did, he would wake up in the safety and love of my arms.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: I watch Ivan as I continue to cry. This is so much. I can’t do this. I can’t… I am not that strong. I am not that powerful. So is Ivan. Even Ivan can’t stop my destruction. I don’t want… I can’t… I won’t… I don’t know… the voices do not stop… Please… Please make it stop… I can’t go on like this. I can’t bear all of this. I can’t protect them. I will harm them. I will hurt them. I don’t want to hear. I don’t want to think. I am literally weeping my heart out now. Nobody should approach me, not even Ivan. I will betray them all. Because I am a betrayer.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: Then suddenly, I feel an injection. I turn around. It’s the doctor. What did he do? I… I slowly feel relaxed. The voices… They are disappearing slowly. I… Don’t hear them anymore. Oh thank god. I don’t hear them. I feel much more calm. Then suddenly, Ivan catches me, and whispers to me everything will be alright. He says I need a rest. Yeah, I trust Ivan. If he says I need a rest, then I will listen to him. He knows better than me. He is going to make the decisions for me. Yeah, I just need to trust Ivan.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: Then he lays me down on a bed. I feel sleepy once again. I need… Rest… He knows me better than I know myself. But as soon as he lays me down, and puts headphones on my ears, I catch his hand, just before I go unconscious. “I love you Ivan…” I mumble quietly, then try to pull him towards me, but I guess he was already lying down next to me. I don’t… Want him to leave. I am safe when he is around. I go to sleep as the recording tells me to let go of my past. Is that the cure? I will try then…

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I lay like that for hours, holding Kyle against me. He is so vulnerable, so broken, he is hurting so much. And he was meant to just be a tool. My weapon. He was my enemy. He cost me so much money… he cost me Dave… he cost me Mason. And now I love him. How did that happen? How? I knew… if I was honest with myself. I knew. I hadn’t allowed myself to grieve for Dave’s loss… And I had been hurting. I had pretended that I wasn’t affected. That I was able to use my emotions like tools. And I was for a time… Until Kyle tried to kill himself. Until I realized that he was totally broken and vulnerable, that he had loved Mason so much and so powerfully that not even my conditioning, my brainwashing could overcome that. And… I had loved Dave that strongly…. That powerfully… but I had never told him I loved him. We simply knew it… we knew we loved each other, that it never had to be said. But it had mattered. And now… I had played with fire, and I love Kyle. Now I must complete what I have started. Now I must brainwash the man I love because there is no going back.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: Ivan. You fool. You total and complete fool. I sigh. It’s getting late in the evening now, and I know Kyle will want real sleep. That drug left a man feeling very tired and exhausted when it wore off. I could tell that it was starting to wear off now. I removed the headphones, and snuggled Kyle against me, kissing his ear. “How are you feeling, Kyle? Do you feel better now? Would you like to try and get some sleep here, in my arms? And… maybe tomorrow, if you want, you could make me breakfast, if it makes you happy? I would love for you to be happy Kyle.”

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: A couple of hours passed while I was listening to the recording in Ivan’s arms. Yeah… I feel much better. The voices have stopped completely. My mind does not think as clearly now. I don’t need to overthink things. I need to let go of my past. It’s hard, but I need to. I will try. I will try my best. Then finally, Ivan takes off the headphones, and I feel Ivan’s kiss on my ear. He is soft, so sincere, so tender, so caring… He is just perfect. I slowly force myself to turn around to face him, but I am so tired. I put a kiss on his nose, then on his lips, and whispered while closing my eyes “I am feeling much better… Thank you… I... Love... You… Let’s sleep… And… I will… Make… Breakfa…” I couldn't finish my sentence, I was so tired, but I was happy. I am in Ivan’s arms. Nothing can go wrong when Ivan is around. He is going to protect everyone I love… He is going to protect them… From me…

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I sighed deeply, happily as Kyle turns into me, kissing my nose, my lips. His kisses are as sweet as nectar, as tender as a spring breeze. His warmth and love makes me feel so very special. Dave made you feel this way too, Ivan. Remember after you would wrestle and train, when you were both so exhausted from fighting that you could barely lift your arms… Do you remember how special and tender you were with each other? And yet you never told each other that you loved one another… But you knew it. You said it in a 1000 little ways, didn’t you? With every touch and stroke, you said it. And you love Kyle in that same way, don’t you? You want to protect him. To care for him. To brainwash him. To rob him of his past. Did you do that to Dave, Ivan? SHUT UP SHUT UP… The voices in my head… they must stop. I can’t stop this now, it is too far gone. I have to go forward, I can’t go back. And Kyle is happy. Right now, in my arms. I am happy. Kyle is happy. He loves me. And I love him. That is enough. I hold him tightly, as he trails off falling into sleep, promising to make me breakfast. And I smile, and together we fall into a deep, restful sleep.

DAY 6

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: I open my eyes slowly. In front of me, there is Ivan, sleeping peacefully. Oh… I feel much better. It’s a perfect start to the day. That’s just amazing. Oh… His arms are around me, and my arms are around his. He keeps his promise, he doesn’t let me go. He is taking care of me. I will take care of him as well. It will be alright. I kiss his cheek very lightly, then slowly free myself from his arms carefully, trying not to wake him up. I am still wearing the same clothes from yesterday. I am still dressed. Hmm… I want to make him happy. How can I make him happy? Oh I was going to prepare him breakfast of course. He would love that… But first… Let’s wake him up...

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: I slowly crawl behind Ivan’s back, and wrap my arms around his neck, almost in a chokehold position, but I don’t squeeze. I gently wrap my legs around his torso as well, almost putting him in a sleeperhold, but not applying any strength. It’s a bit hard to wrap his body completely when he is asleep, but I am pretty careful and slow while doing all of this. Just like a snake. He shouldn’t suspect a thing... Then I kiss his ear, and squeeze just a little bit, not to hurt him, but probably enough to wake up a careful fighter like him. Then I whisper into his ear “Good morning commander… You are my prisoner now… How are you going to escape?” Hehe… I am sure he loves roleplaying. It is a lot of fun, especially in the training sessions I did. He probably can push me off if he wants, I can’t hold him for too long, but hey… I got him, that’s all that matters, right? I can protect him if he lets me… OH YES… That sounds so logical, if he lets me protect him, then that means it’s “alright” for me to try and protect him. Because he knows best. I increase the pressure just a little bit again as I hug him.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I sleep through the night, my thoughts and dreams going in circles, unable to see any way out of the mess I’d created. I was forced to go through with brainwashing a man who was my enemy, but whom I now loved. How had I gotten here? How had this happened. But again and again I kept coming back to how good Kyle felt against my chest, how amazing and warm it was to have him snuggled up against me. I woke up very early, but simply lay there, holding Kyle. I let go of all my troubles and worries, and focused on nothing but holding Kyle, of the simple joy and pleasure I took from holding his lean, muscled body against mine. There was no past, and no future. Only now, this moment.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I was of course aware the very moment Kyle awoke, but I stayed still and kept my breathing regular and easy, as though I was still asleep. I wanted to see what he would do. His very first act was to kiss me on the cheek. I felt a surge of joy blossom in my heart. Kyle had woken up, and kissed me. I felt something inside me thrum with even more love for this man. Then, I could tell he was in a playful mood as he carefully extracted himself from my arms and cuddled up behind me, wrapping my neck in his arms, and his legs around my hard, solid torso. Then, he kisses my ear, squeezing his thighs and arms as he has me held, whispering in my ear that I am now his prisoner. And… my heart exploded with a deep joy. His happiness, his desire to play, they were so genuine, so real. His brainwashing, his conditioning had sunken into his mind so deeply. And did you have to brainwash Dave, Ivan? To earn his love? Is that what you do to your loved ones? But… but … he was my enemy… I never intended to fall in love with him… but you have. You played a dangerous game Ivan, and now it has backfired on you. What will you do now? I push the voices away, and focus on Kyle. Just Kyle.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I growl in a low, playful voice as I speak up, feeling 10 years younger all of a sudden, “You have woken the Russian Bear, Kyle… and the bear is hungry… You will make a tasty snack.” Then, moving with strength, but also tender care, I twist in his grip, my hard sure muscle rotating smoothly, with precise power, so as not to aggravate his healing gunshot wounds or hurt him in any way. Now, I’m face to face with Kyle, and my eyes are shining with love and joy. I push his smaller, leanly muscled body down on to the bed, and growl like a bear, while my eyes are shining with love. I snuffle my mouth into his lean abs, avoiding the stitches of his wound, making eating noises as my mouth gently moves up his body, to his chest, and nibbles delicately on his nipples, then finds his mouth. I growl once more, “Now it’s time for the tastiest bit… this is one hungry Bear Kyle… and he wants his breakfast!” And tenderly, I open my mouth and lower my head, to kiss Kyle with a joy and passion and love that rivaled the most tender kiss I ever shared with Dave.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: I chuckle playfully as Ivan pretends to be a Russian Bear, a name that suits him. Then slowly, he manages to twist in my grip to face me. Wow…I really really really never saw this side of him. How can someone as observant as you not realize it before, Kyle? But I don’t care. I just want to focus on the moment when Ivan pushes me to bed gently, freeing himself easily from my grip as I expected. But it was all in fun of course. Then I laugh as he growls like a bear, and snuffles into my body, slowly working his way towards my mouth, and mentions that he has arrived at the tastiest place. I kiss him back with joy and pleasure. He is so incredible Kyle… You should be ashamed of yourself for treating him like a douchebag. But he forgave me, right? This is all that matters at the moment, because he loves me.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: I kiss him for a very long time, moving my hands to his neck, and pulling him closer to myself, wrapping my legs around his torso once more. Then after a while, in order to catch my breath, I break off our kiss, but still holding Ivan around his neck. Our foreheads are touching, and our eyes examine each other's faces. It's just perfect. Then I smirk, in a playful tone again, teasing him "But I know how to tame beasts like you… You are hungry, huh? Why don't you just eat the meal I am going to prepare for you instead of me?" I wink at him, then drop another quick kiss on Ivan's lips, still holding him in my grip "What do you love most?"

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: Our kiss goes on and on for what seems like an eternity. My entire being is focused on him. I haven’t felt this way since I first met Dave. Oh Dave… I miss you. I wish I had told you how much I loved you. Then, I stare into Kyle’s eyes, the eyes of the man who killed Dave, and I don’t, I can’t, hate him or blame him. All I can do is love him. Love my enemy, the man I captured, brutally shot, ruthlessly tortured and brainwashed to the point where he wanted to commit suicide when I told him Mason, his lover, had been killed. And now… here we were cuddled, sharing a newfound love that was genuine. Did you have to brainwash Dave to make him love you, Ivan? But… the voice was losing it’s power to make me feel guilty any longer. In the face of this moment, nothing mattered but Kyle. He is so happy. And that makes me so happy.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I growl and laugh as Kyle’s words wash over me, “You think you can tame a Russian bear,” I growl in a deep low voice, my eyes twinkling, “If Russian bears cannot have tasty men to snack on, then we will settle for fried eggs and porridge.. GRRRrrrrr” I kiss him again, then with a gesture, I point over to the other side of my room, where there is a small kitchen, with a stove, a refrigerator and cupboards with simple foods and dishes. I stroke Kyle’s hair tenderly as he kisses me again.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: I grin as I hear Ivan's words, then pull him towards me for another hug, and squeeze him tightly against me. I feel safe. I feel happy. And I will keep him safe and make him happy as well. Ivan makes me happy. He is keeping his promises. And I trust him. He knows what’s best for me. He loves me with all his heart, I know it. I inhale Ivan's scent for a moment, fuck… How can he smell so good? So perfect? Then I slowly let him go and push him gently sideways in order to get up, and speak up, in the same joyful tone "Well, that is very modest for a big bear like you… But if this is what you want from your bear tamer, be my guest…" I laugh once more, then get up quickly, and rush to the small kitchen Ivan pointed out.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: I grab a cooking pot from the cupboards, then some eggs with a bottle of oil. I turn on the cooker, and start preparing fried eggs. Afterwards, I grab another saucepan, then find the porridge oats in the cupboards again as well, and start preparing it as well with some milk. I place it on the cooker beside the eggs. I chuckle once more, then look at Ivan just for a moment to give him a smile. How did I hate this guy when we first met? He is so sincere. How can anyone hate him? Once I meet with James, I will explain how we misunderstood Ivan. He is just perfect. Then I grab a tray and place two glasses on it. While doing all of this, I speak in a cheerful tone "Soo… Ivan the Russian Bear, tell me something I don't know about you…" yes… The more I learn more about Ivan, the easier it is to make him happy. And if he is happy, he will take care of my beloved ones. It is that simple…

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I chuckle, sitting up as Kyle heads over to the small kitchen to make me some eggs and porridge. I watch his every movement, enraptured by his lean muscled frame, his stunning good looks, he lit up the room when he was happy. I wanted him to be happy. I got up, stretching my limbs and sat down at the small table under a window as Kyle finished making breakfast. He asked me about me. The question took me by surprise, and I wasn’t expecting it. But why not? Why shouldn’t he know more about Ivan? I loved him, after all. He loved me as well. Did you have to brainwash Dave to make him love you, Ivan? Did you? I can’t… I’m sorry… it’s too late now… I didn’t know… I would.. Fall in love with him. I can’t stop now. The only way is forward. I push down the thoughts, my uncertainty. There was just Kyle and me. Right now. And he had asked me a question.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I pondered this, “Well, I was born in Russia, you know. In St. Petersburg. My father and my mother, they were not wealthy. In Soviet Russia, no one was wealthy, unless you were high up in the Communist party. My father was a steel worker, an honest job, and he was hard working. But he and my mother died when I was a young man. I honor them still. But I, I was always a fighter. I was always a warrior, and conflict and war called to my blood. It is an honorable calling. I entered the Russian army for my compulsory enlistment, and stayed on after. I trained and honed my skills, and was accepted into the Spetsnaz. Those were troubled times, The Soviet Union had collapsed, and Russia was struggling to find her feet. All around us was chaos and upheaval, there were wars and battles in Chechnya. I had my fill of such wars. I was a Spetsnaz, an elite Commando. And I was good at it. I am a sadist. I get off on hurting strong men, I always have. That gave me an edge that many of my other soldiers lacked. But that war was stupid. There is no honor, no joy in burning down villages or arresting and torturing terrified civilians. So, about 20 years ago, I had had enough of following other men’s orders in these stupid wars, so I decided to leave the Spetsnaz, but I was lost, all I knew was fighting and battle. What was a soldier to do without a war? Then…” My eyes grew distant, and a warm smile slowly crept across my face.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: “...I met Derek Steel. I have never, in all my years, met a man like Derek Steel. He is bold. He is direct. He has a goal, and he achieves it. He is ruthless beyond the measure of any man I have known, and yet he is not heartless. He treats his friends and his loved ones with a kindness and consideration, a respect and loyalty that is awe-inspiring. It is why only the best of the best are invited to join the Brotherhood of Steel, the mercenary company that he runs. But to his enemies… he is utterly without mercy. I have seen him do things to his enemies that would make your blood run cold. He found me, in a bar, lost and without purpose. He invited me to spar with him, after a few shots of vodka. We went into a back alley and beat the shit out of each other, and ended up laughing and bleeding on each other. At some point during our fight, without losing any of our brutality, the fight had turned into a struggle between friends. And that was how I came to be in the Brotherhood of Steel. Our biggest employer is the Syndicate, of course. And they pay well. We do their dirty work for the money, to feed our families and to make our living.” I shrug. “But, despite what you have been told, we are men. We are not heartless, and we can love and treasure being loved.”

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: As Kyle brings the tray with our breakfast over, and puts it down on the table, I look up into his eyes, and my eyes are shining with warmth and love. “And even a hardened soldier, a commando like myself, knows that our loved ones are to be treasured…. I love you Kyle.”

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: I listen to Ivan’s story with deep interest while preparing and completing the breakfast. Where he was born, how he became a soldier, how he didn’t like the way his wars had been fought, how he values honor, and how he met with Derek Steel after leaving the army. He told me his past with complete trust. His enemy… No Kyle… His "former" enemy… You and he are lovers now. He cares about you, and you care about him. Of course both of you are going to trust each other. I bring the tray with fried eggs and porridge, along with two glasses of orange juice. And I sit down as Ivan tells me he cares about his beloved ones, and I am one of them. I feel so lucky. These past two weeks were crazy, I literally felt every emotion with my heart fully. It didn't get off to a good start, but at the end, it turned out very well. You thought you could read people very well Kyle. You are not completely wrong, but you still have a lot to learn.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: I reach out for Ivan's hand, and give it a gentle squeeze. Even holding his hand was awesome. Not breaking eye contact, I give him a huge smile, then chuckle "I love you too Ivan… Thanks for telling me..." then my smile becomes more sorrowful, I remember how I made him suffer. Did you apologize properly Kyle? You hadn't but you should. I take a deep breath, then continue "I am sorry about Dave… I was just… Trying to protect James… I… If only I would have known…" I blush a little bit… Wow… This is hard, really hard. I continue "And I am sorry for making you feel worthless… I was… I actually am not sure what I was thinking…" I bring his hand towards me, and give his hand a gentle kiss, just like I did with James. Can you reverse time Kyle? You can't… But you can earn his love, his trust, more and more…

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I feel a warm glow inside as Kyle tells me again how much he loves me. My hold his hand in mine, gently, my eyes soft. Then he … he apologizes to me… for killing .. Dave. Oh Dave… DAVE… I loved you. Why did I never tell you? Why… And he did it to protect Mason… I would have killed to protect Dave. I loved Dave. I knew how deeply Kyle loved Mason. I knew. I had loved Dave in the same way. And Mason… the man that would have been worth 30 million dollars… the man that Kyle had twice helped escape my grasp. My enemy. A man that I had tried to kill in the past. How… could … I ?? I felt so confused inside. I like my enemies to be nice and distant figures that I could torture and kill without remorse. Not… this close… Kyle loved him, and I wanted to kill him. How could I deal with this? The silence lay heavy for a few moments as I struggled to find words…

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: Finally, I spoke, my eyes heavy with emotion, “Kyle.. there is a saying… all is fair in love and war … You do not need to apologize to me. I understand. We were at war then. It is forgiven… and now we are in love… and it is doubly forgiven.” And I meant it. I felt the strength of the words wash over me. Then, I finished my breakfast, eating hungrily. It was good, the eggs were fried perfectly, and the porridge was delicately seasoned with cinnamon and milk. “Now, I have a surprise for you, my Kyle. How would you like to visit the shooting range with me and get in some practice?” I smile at him, holding out my hand again to stroke his.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: Ivan doesn’t answer for a moment. I can tell he is still hurting inside, but he doesn’t want to show it. But I just know, it hurts, it hurts a lot. It was the worst moment in my life when I learned that James was dead. It was so hard, it was the literal breakdown. Thank god it was just a bad dream. Then Ivan finally starts talking. He says it is alright, and especially understandable in love and war. So he forgave me twice. I felt such a relief. There is hope… We can’t forget our lost ones, but we can ease the pain by holding onto each other. Then I chuckle as he quickly finishes his meal, just like James. They have so many things in common, I am sure if they give each other a chance, everything will turn out fine…

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: Then I stop for a moment. Kyle… Do you realize what you are thinking? James is one of the top leaders of Counter - Syndicate Operations. Ivan, on the other hand, is one of the top officials who works for the Syndicate. Why… didn’t I think of that obvious relationship before? I was so tired, even after the sleep yesterday my mind is still not very clear. Is that the reason? Probably… Then… How are they going to get along? I was trying to find a solution that fit my new conditioning, but for some reason… I can’t find an answer… But… Ivan told me he will protect James… So… He wouldn’t hurt him, right? I don’t want to think about it… It’s too confusing. I just want to spend my time with Ivan now… I quickly shake my head to distract myself, and put another smile on my face.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: “Shooting range? Hehehe… I would LOVE it… But don’t cry when I beat your ass…” I grin mischievously, and get up slowly as I finish my breakfast as well. Being able to eat really feels perfect… And shooting? I am the VERY BEST at shooting. I can tell that most of the agents around here can’t beat me when it comes to shooting. Now it was time to show my skills to Ivan as well. It’s not that hard. I am recovering faster than I thought… It will be perfect. Still holding his hand, I pull Ivan up once again like a child, and put a kiss on his cheek once more.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I laugh, “Well, my cocky young friend, let’s see shall we?” Kyle pulls me up, and kisses my cheek. The feeling is again, incredible. I want to treasure every moment with this remarkable man. I lead him gently out of the room, stopping to pick up my gun holster, locked in a safe near my bed. I strap it around my waist, and lead the way, moving slowly, knowing that Kyle is still recovering from his gunshot wounds. The shooting range isn’t far, and we enter in. A few other guards are practicing at various distances with their weapons. I find us a range all to ourselves, then, I reach out to my holster and pull out… one of Kyle’s twin pistols, the ones I had taken from him during our battle. Gravely I hand it to him. I now trust him so much that I am willing to give him a weapon. I can’t believe it… but it is true. The brainwashing and conditioning have taken hold so deeply, so completely that he doesn’t see me as an enemy any longer.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: And again that voice… Did you have to brainwash Dave, Ivan? When you practiced marksmanship together, did you need to brainwash him first before you trusted him at your side? I … stop… stop… No… I love Kyle now. That is all that matters. I have to go on with his conditioning, I can’t stop now. For his sake. He needs this now. As much as I do. God, I miss you Dave.. Then, I speak up, “Kyle, here, you can practice with this. And I’ll practice with the other one. These are special to you, I can tell. You had them customized just for you, it shows. So, you will use one, and I will use the other… it will connect us together.” I smiled warmly.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: Oh yes… I can finally do some practise, again, thanks to Ivan. He takes his gun holster from a safe as I carefully watch him, then leads us to the shooting range. There are some other agents here as well, but Ivan finds a place that we can practise together. Then he takes out my dual pistols, and hands one of them to me. Wow… I missed them. They were a bit old, this pair, they were my uncle’s gift when I was around 16 years old. But since then, I constantly keep up with their maintenance, never letting them wear out. They were indeed a product of solid construction. My uncle… He… Knew his work indeed.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: I nod to Ivan and take the pistol he offered to me. He was right, one of them is in his hand, the other one is in my hand; what a great way to bond with each other. I take my gun, and look at the targets that are waiting for us to shoot. Hmm… 3 targets for each polygon here… Definitively the Syndicate centers are training soldiers here, it’s really well prepared and developed. That explains why their troops are really strong. I aim my pistol, close one of my eyes, and focus. Now it was time to impress the hell out of Ivan. With a smile on my face, I took a deep breath, and shot my pistol 3 times in two seconds. I hit the front target in his throat, then the right one in his chest, and finally the left one in his head. Ehhh… Guess I need to practise a little bit more, but still, it was better than most people. Is it enough to impress Ivan? I don’t know… But at least I was really fast, and hit all of them… Let’s see his reaction… I turn to face Ivan, and give him a wink with a cocky smile on my face.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I watch as Kyle takes aim, and fires three times, in under two seconds. My eyes narrowed in surprise. I was a good shot, a very good shot, and I had been doing it all my life. But Kyle… he was a natural. I was very impressed with his marksmanship. I was the best shot here at this base, and Kyle was undoubtedly better than me. I smile at him, and put my hand on his shoulder. “That was very impressive Kyle. Let’s see if I can keep up.” Well, it’s my turn now. I turn towards the shooting range. I focus, and slip into combat mode, then fire once, my bullet slamming into the left target, right through his shoulder. Not bad, but I had been aiming for his chest. I focus harder, then direct my pistol to the center target, and this one is clean, directly through the forehead. Then, I go for the third target, this one is tricky, it is partially behind cover. I don’t have a clear shot at the target’s head, but I do see an opening for his knee, just visible behind a gap in a “paper” fence. I fire, and my bullet shoots his knee out. I check my time, four seconds. That’s not bad. But it is nowhere near as good as Kyle’s three shots in two seconds. My face breaks out in a smile, and as I reholster the pistol, I gather Kyle into my embrace. Seeing his skill, his training was exciting to me, and I wanted to praise him for it.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I murmur in his ear, “Kyle.. You are amazing, do you know that? I can imagine us together, in battle against the enemy, with you at my back, protecting me with your marksmanship as I protect you with mine. Fighting back to back… together… Like I once did with my Dave.. Would you like that Kyle?” I was overwhelmed with love and grief. Dave… Dave and I fought side by side and back to back in so many battles… we cared for each other… we saved each other’s lives countless times… and now he was dead. Why did I never tell him how much I loved him? But Kyle… I would keep safe. I would protect him. And I would make sure that every day he knows how much I love him. I felt dizzy… how… how could I love this man so fiercely with such speed? How? And yet, I did. I did.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: I continue to smile as Ivan praises me, and take a step back for his turn. I was wondering how he was going to keep up with me. The first bullet was a direct hit to the shoulder, the second one is perfect, flawless, to the forehead, and the last one sinks into the target’s knee. He was good. He was very good. I know I was an exception in many ways. From the age of 5… I can handle a gun since the age of 5, and when I was 8 years old, I was able to shoot properly. Learning something when you are a little kid really helps you to be a master at it. Then he turns to me with another warm smile of his, and hugs me gently again. I wrap my arms around his neck as well to show him my love.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: But the things he whispered into my ear made me even happier… After almost 6 days… After 6 fucking days, I really earned something, apart from Ivan’s love. He was asking me to protect him. He was trusting me… Trusting my shooting skills. But he TRUSTS me. I hug him tighter, and kiss his ear before I move on “I would like that Ivan… I will protect you… No matter what… I will keep you safe, just like you keep me safe…” I inhale his scent one more time, then whisper back “Thanks for trusting...” But I can’t finish my sentence. My mind flashes to my memories again. James trusted me as well, but… I let him down… I put him in danger… I couldn’t protect him. I am not trustworthy. I… I can’t… I can’t let Ivan trust me. If he trusts me, I will put him in danger. He is much safer when he is not putting his trust in me.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: I slowly let go of Ivan, and put a fake smile on my face. I shouldn’t… Complete that sentence. But… Uh… He shouldn't suspect anything as well… I rub his cheek, and then continue in a much more cheerful tone “Thanks for the training… It was really fun…” I slowly offer my gun back to Ivan. No… He shouldn’t trust me. I was wanting him to trust me this morning, but as my mind continues to clear more, I realize He SHOULDN’T. You can’t be selfish Kyle.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I listen to Kyle, and I can see the delight and joy in his face as I praise him. Then, suddenly, his face clouds. He tries to hide it, but I can tell that he is upset again. The smile he gives me after a long pause is fake, and he never finishes his sentence. He slowly gives me his pistol back, and simply thanks me. I nod, and take the gun. Then, I speak up, “Let’s go back to my room. We can rest for the rest of this afternoon.” I lead Kyle back to my room, and put my holster back into my safe, locking it securely. Then, I pat the bed, motioning Kyle to sit down. I speak to Kyle, “Kyle, do you remember yesterday when you got upset, and the Doctor gave you an injection? I think you might need another injection now. You have been under a lot of stress, and this injection will help ease your mind, and give you a break from the stress. And just like yesterday, I’ll be with you the entire time, holding you, loving you, protecting you. Would you like that Kyle?”

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: Ivan takes the gun back, and we head towards his room once again. After he locks the holster in the safe again, he motions me to sit down. I simply obey, and sit down next to him. But my mind was already filled with lots of conflicts. I… Don’t… Want to… Think… Again… Will it be like this the rest of my life? The morning will be nice, and I simply drown in my thoughts until Ivan drugs me again? But that doesn’t sound right. But if Ivan thinks it is the right thing to do, then I will obey, He knows better than me. I need to trust his decisions. I am trusting in him. My decisions only hurt people while his decisions save them. I take a deep breath, and simply nod, agreeing with him. But I don’t look at him. I just stare at the floor, my thoughts will not leave me alone. There are so many conflicts. So many questions… But I don’t want to have a breakdown once again… I just want to be happy with Ivan… After a couple of seconds, I slowly lay down on the bed. Yeah, I shouldn’t think. I should let Ivan think for me, and make the decisions for me… I start waiting for the injection again. I hope the doctor arrives before the voices grow louder.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: I can see how hard this is on Kyle. He wants the conditioning to work, he wants to let go of his conflicts, he just wants to love me. And I just want to love him. I needed to continue the conditioning… I had no choice, until the process was entirely complete, which might take a while yet, he would feel torn apart between who he was and who he is becoming. I don’t want him to suffer. No. This is the best thing for Kyle. Would you have done this to Dave, Ivan? Would you have drugged him and brainwashed him? Did you have to force him to love you? No … no no… I … have … no … choice. SHUT UP. I turn aside from Kyle, not wanting him to see the confusion and the pain on my face. I call the doctor.

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: The doctor arrives in a few minutes, and quickly administers another injection into Kyle’s shoulder. I sooth Kyle, and lay down next to him. I fold him up in my arms, and reach out to the table beside the bed and settle the headphones in on Kyle’s ears. I snuggle him up close to me, and kiss his back gently, while I stroke his leanly muscled chest, letting him feel safe and warm in my arms. The drug begins to take effect, fogging Kyle’s brain, and making him very susceptible to subliminal messaging, as the voice sounds over and over in Kyle’s ears, “Trust Ivan. Love Ivan. Obey Ivan. Ivan will care for you. Ivan will protect you. Ivan will look after your loved ones. He will protect them for you. You don’t have to make any decisions. Follow Ivan. Serve Ivan.” I lay there, holding onto Kyle, loving him, and missing Dave, and feeling what a mess I have gotten myself into. I wonder briefly how they are getting on with Mason. I know they haven’t broken him yet, or I would have heard. I must check up on that. But, hours pass, and it is evening time. The drug begins to finally wear off, and just like the last time, I know it will leave Kyle so tired and sleepy. I get another night with my Kyle… held in my arms. Another night with the man I love. God, how I miss Dave… Dave… why did I never tell you how much I loved you? I will never make that mistake with Kyle.

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: The voices start to grow louder and louder until I feel another injection in my shoulder. Then… Everything becomes foggy once again. I feel much more relaxed. I feel much more relieved. Then Ivan puts the headphones on my ears, and hugs me from behind again, as he feels my firm chest. That feels much much… Better… I am really glad I met Ivan. I slowly mumbled the words of the recording in a soft voice “Love Ivan… Trust Ivan… He will protect… He will take care… He will look after…” And hours and hours passed like that as well… Just like yesterday, and I feel much happier, I feel much safer. Ivan will take care of everything for me. The only thing I need to do is please him and make him happy. If I obey, he will love me and protect my beloved ones. If I don’t obey, he will hurt me and most importantly, them… Yes, I need to obey…

12:26 Inspector_Kyle_Byrne: Ivan takes off the headphones once again, and I feel very tired. But I am happy. He is easing the pain for me. I feel like everything starts to fit together slowly. I hold Ivan’s hands that are hugging me, and give them a weak squeeze and whisper the same thing just like yesterday. “I love you Ivan…” then I drift off to sleep. I am now confident that if I am in Ivan’s arms, me and my beloved ones are safe…

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: As the drug wears off, Kyle tells me how much he loves me. I tell him the same, “I love you Kyle..” I remove his headphones, and slowly drift off to sleep with him. But, after only an hour or two, one of my aides rushes in and shakes me awake gently. I carefully untwine myself from Kyle, so as not to disturb him. I step out into the hall, my aide speaks up then, “Sir, Mason is missing.” My eyes go wide in shock. “What??? How??” The aide continues, “He was discovered missing about 20 minutes ago. Daniel Allen and Derek Steel were both at the small safehouse in Toledo torturing him. He had nearly broken after seeing the video of Kyle’s suicide attempt, but then not long after that, four dead guards were discovered. Daniel and Derek were notified at once, but they were low on manpower, having only two guards left, and found no trace of Mason. It was a professional job, and there was no sign of who was responsible.” I thought furiously. This was a huge blow to our plans. We needed the location of Masterson. “This is a disaster! What are Derek and Daniel doing?” The aide spoke up, “They are on their way here, with the two remaining guards. The safehouse has been ‘destroyed’ by a tragic fire, to erase all evidence of our presence there. They wanted me to inform you, and to let you know that they were on their way.” I nodded. “Make all the necessary preparations. Double the guard. The authorities have no way of knowing where we are, but that is no excuse for laxity. Ensure that comfortable chambers are ready for Derek Steel. As soon as they wake up tomorrow morning, wake me. I am sure they will want to discuss the situation as soon as they have rested.”

12:26 Commando_Ivan_Usov: The aide saluted smartly, and headed off to carry out his orders. What a disaster… The disasters were mounting around me… Dave was dead… I had fallen in love with Kyle, the man who cost me Mason… My plan to turn him into a weapon was in shambles… How could I weaponize a man I loved as I had loved Dave? What was I going to do? And now Daniel and Derek were coming… Mason had vanished silently into the night. What if Derek or Daniel found out that I had fallen in love with Kyle? Everything was falling apart. But panicking wouldn’t help. No. I would not worry about the future. Right now, I would go back to my bed, and treasure what time I could with the man I loved. I had promised him… to keep him safe.. To keep his beloved ones safe… But how… Mason… was free… and he would have to be killed. That was not tonight’s worry. It was a worry for another day. I headed back to bed, and wrapped my Kyle up in my arms again, snuggled him tight against me, and drifted into an uneasy sleep.

Published: 2021-03-24, viewed 32 times.